Wow...

So you see... I haven't checked on here for a while, only because I've been on my other blog. :) I like Tumblr.com much better, sorry Blogger. :P

I'm I enough? - January 29th, 2011

Do you know how nervous I get when your around?

Do you know how hard it is to speak?

I want to be the girl you want.

I want to be the one you hold.

But am I good enough?

Am I okay?

I know I’m not perfect.

I know I laugh to hard.

I know I’m not beautiful.

I know I’m stupid,

Immature,

Fat,

To tall,

I always mess up.

But maybe I can be enough?

Maybe I could try harder?

Just for you,

Maybe I can be that girl.

Maybe I could pretend to be perfect,

So I can be by your side.

Would that be enough for you?

 Sincerely,

Golden Poppy

Can't I ever catch a break? - January 27th, 2011

Dear Readers,

If you haven't notice, I always seem to have boy problems. Like now for intense. I like Tristan. Who just  happens to be two years younger than me. Really? I mean, I finally get over three helpless crushes, and just enter right into  NEW ONE?
Sincerely,

Golden Poppy

Youngsters..... - January 27th, 2011

 Dear Readers,
Um... Wow. Just wow. I just got a crush, like I said in the last post. But I just found out today he's two years younger than me. >..< Great, right? Not. Argh. Why do I always have such bad luck with my crushes? It's just, he's soooo adorable. And he has the personality of a uke! It's just so adorable and all. I just love adorable things, including ukes. Well.... If you have any advice, or just anything, I'd appreciate it.
Sincerely,

Golden Poppy

Hey. :) - January 26th, 2011

Dear Readers,

Awesome day at Church tonight. The African Children's Choir was amazing, the mood was amazing, my friends were amazing, everything was amazing.
 Well, You see, I got over Jamie, Arthur and Jerald. All in one night. I mean, wow. But, isn't there always a but? But, I have a new crush. Ugh, I know, right? Anyways, we can use his real name. his name is Tristan. Cute, huh? And he is adorable and I love adorable things. Mmmmm, just soooo cute. :)

Sincerely,

Golden Poppy

Ummm..... - January 25, 2011

 Dear Readers,

 What's up? I had a pretty good day today. I'm in normal English 1, but now I'm getting changed to Pre A.P, the freshman version of A.P English. So, I'm happy about that. Other than that, I don't even know why I'm happy. But I know I am happy.
 At the moment, I'm at Karen's. She's trying to make me eat. I don't like eating, it makes me feel fat. So I'm refusing to eat, which is probably not good. Exsepssially since I don't eat lunch or breakfast. I should start eating again. It's just I know how much I way and I hate it. Everyone is smaller than me. I hate how big I am. 5'9 and 150 pounds. And I'm only 14. Ugh.
 Well, that ruined my mood. Greeaaat. Knew it would, though. Sucks, but true. Sooo true. So, readers, what do you think about it? My horrible urge to put myself down? Oh well. I should probably end this post.
 Live life like you won't make it till tomorrow, Love like you can never love again, and smile like the world is your playground.
 Sincerely,

Golden Poppy

Another One - January 22nd, 2011

Dear Readers,

 You see, I forgot to tell you about my other crush. (Yes I know, that's three guys I'm crushing on. I'm well aware of how easily I like people). Anyways, lets call him..... Hmmm,  how 'bout Jamie? Okay, you see, Jamie here liked me first. I hadn't liked him at the time. We stopped talking really after he got a girlfriend. Then, like a month or two later, me and Karen go to the mall to hang out with him. And suddenly I like him? It comes out of no where. He hasn't changed much, but suddenly I like him. And he has a girlfriend. And I already turned him down. I felt like crap. I mean, how much of a bitch am I if I only start liking people after they stop liking me?
 So, back to the topic at hand. Today he broke up with his girlfriend. He's crying, probably. Well, he was crying is the point here. Anyways, I want to comfort him, but I still feel like a bitch. And we talk now, kind of. And I want him to be happy. And I don't know what to do to help him because all that's running through my mind is, "He's single." But I want to help him, because I like him and I want him to be as happy as possible, with or without me. And I need advice. And I don't know where to get it from. So, any help, Readers?

                        P.S: The picture up there ^^^^^^, I drew that.  I do love to draw.

 Help me,

Golden Poppy